# Day 30 – Day 2: Defined as Eternity

Time flew and a few friends ensured that I live my last days (mostly weekends) in 20s amidst music, fun, dance, jamming, insane parties+after parties+after after parties+after after after parties :D, long phone calls discussing 30 Rock and of course vulgar bouts of drinking … thanks to you! However, no one would comprehend how much the 2 before 0 means to me … 20s – what I could have done but didn’t!! How much indiscretion that I could have exercised under the comfort of the so called “i am young and restless’ sanctuary .. I feel I am weathered, dusty and ridiculous now! lol!

‘Randy Described Eternity’ – this song explains, in its out-of-the-box quirky way, what eternity means (http://www.threeimaginarygirls.com/node/4157) .. I wish youth and innocence were as eternal as hope .. 🙂

Of all songs, which would describe my last day of 20s, I chose ‘Randy Described Eternity’ (Thanks @Christopher)

“every thousand years
this metal sphere
ten times the size of Jupiter
floats just a few yards past the earth
you climb on your roof
and take a swipe at it
with a single feather
hit it once every thousand years
`til you’ve worn it down
to the size of a pea
yeah I’d say that’s a long time
but it’s only half a blink
in the place you’re gonna be”

# Day 12, 11 & 10 – Something gotta give … one day .. yes one day … muhahahhahahaha!!

#Day 15, 14 & 13 – “Oh honey, you’re so pretty, but you’ve always made decisions like an ugly girl.”

Tara’s mom in United States of Tara throws this gauntlet at Tara’s younger sister in Season 2.

Given this context, I wish I had exercised some indiscretion in my life 😦 if not at 20s but at least in my teens.

My case is the worst – worst case of the ‘ugly girl’ making decisions as a ‘pretty girl’ … Sigh and it’s too late …

#Day 16 – “You have reached 7 days of battling it out” – Achievement unlocked :D

#Day 16 - "You have reached 7 days of battling it out" - Achievement unlocked 😀

#Day 17 – Three guitars and three groupies …

that’s what my day 17 looked (?) or rather sounded like 🙂

#Day 20, 19 & 18 – Learned to love the ride

I have been watching United States of Tara for quite sometime now. You can Google up however, in short, it’s a story about a woman who has Dissociative Identity Disorder, with personalities ranging from a 16 yr old girl to a drunk (male) motorcyclist and who tries to live a normal life with her husband, two kids in middle class suburbia.

Completely got derailed here. But cut me up for throwing cliches here – Without mess, life is uninteresting. If I were to live a Disney life (the good cute ones and not the evil-subliminal-adult type fairy tale) I would kill myself.

Whether I enjoy this messy life – if I say yes, it will be a cute Disney answer. Answer is ‘no’! It’s painful – it hurts and sometimes you stop functioning like one of those Terminator robots – when their corneas dim out as soon as  their power is usurped. But without these kinks in one’s life… it will be a boring constant routine of fun times… except for getting laid everyday at will – that will be awesome and I would say a completely interesting life … 😀

I like these lines –

Open up the sky this mess is getting high

its windy and our family needs a ride

I know we’ll be just fine when we learn to love the ride.

I know we’ll be fine when we learn to love the ride

I know we’ll be just fine when we learn to love the ride.

Here’s a preview of this song:

#Day 21 – Circle .. how I learned to stop worrying and love the Circle!

It’s a full circle .. however the radius changes all the time .. damn!! … radius being how long was the event .. the shorter the time frame the smaller becomes the circle.

Here’s an excerpt from the poem ‘Shropshire Lad’ shared by Ratnesh (a friend from B School) in 2006.

“Oh, when I was in love with you

Then I was clean and brave,

And miles around the wonder grew

How well did I behave.

And now the fancy passes by

And nothing will remain,

And miles around they’ll say that

I Am quite myself again.”

By now, you’d have got what I meant by a circle. Sometimes we get stranded on the same spot where we start from. If radius is time, circumference is the experience – the entire time frame spreads out itself as a continuous events curve. Pi – your disposition towards the event (happiness and misery or shall I say positive or negative with some sort of fuzziness??)

Smaller circles helps. You have a smaller radius – so it completes sooner. The lesser the time the involvement in the event itself is less.

The area of the circle = time * time = how affected are you by the event.

In the poem, the person goes through happiness and then comes back to where he was – miserable. In another example. the person goes through miserable time and then comes back to where he was – happy.

Honestly, I don’t know which person am I – don’t know whether I am happy now or in utter misery. All I know that, the time variable was small enough this time to make my happiness/misery too heightened.

Am I kidding?

‎#Day 23 – In the morning I’d awake and I couldn’t remember What is love and what is hate? ….

#Day 25 – You know that you are single and getting old when …

For the uninitiated, this is a part of my new self expression – ’30 days to 30′ project. I will record my thoughts in my last 30 days of my 20s though various medium. Here is a blog post –

#Day 25 – You know that you are single and getting old when  …

1. You join hobby classes and then harass your colleagues and friends with long tirades of what you’ve learned.
2. You keep a jar of Nutella, a spoon and a few almonds next to your bed
3. You – Open Facebook > Check Notifications – negative > Check ‘Top News’ on homepage – “done, no new updates :(” > Like > Comment > More likes > More comments > Check ‘Most Recent’  > More Likes and Comments > “done, no more updates. What else do I do now?”
4. You join Salsa classes in the fervent hope of getting some action
5. You start going to clubs which you’d have never visited in your younger days
6. You become chatty with strangers with just one thing in mind “Please tell me that you wanna sleep with me… I mean now… or may be a good romance will do too …!!”
7. Your friends tell you stuff like “Don’t worry! You still look young! 40s is the new 30s and 30s is the new 20s”
8. You are the first person to arrive in a party and the last one to leave … duh!
9. You say things like “Rihanna is the new Alanis Morisette” or “I don’t know why I fall asleep so early nowadays” or “Table for one please!” 😀
10. Your vacation pictures usually have people in odd numbers
11. You feel happy cooking for others
12. Your last night out was spent watching ‘crazy woman burning in jealousy trying to kill ex lover and his girlfriend’ kinda movies
13. You buy your first ‘Anti-hairfall’ shampoo yourself!
14. You start spooning a pillow and name the pillow.
15. Your home deliveries consist of Pizza on weekdays and of course! Chinese on weekends.
16. Bar seating area starts looking like the coolest place in the world to you and the bar man/woman is your new best friend/soul sista!!
17. Your credit card bill item says “Friend Co.  – $19.00”
18. You start advising people on relationship matters based on the last dream you had about Astronaut Mike Dexter or Princess Leia!
19. You forget when admiring stops and stalking starts
20. You start making lists like these “You know that … when ..” “My most fav 30 Rock moments” “
21. Your recent favorite brand is Forever 21

~ credit: to the numerous single and aging brethren around the world! 🙂 this is my ode to you!

#Day 26 – Hit my head hard while doing rapid crunches *&@!*#%&!%# – feeling lighter and younger!! Hope it lasts!

#Day 28 – Reflecting on the self fulfilling prophecy of being forlorn nearing 30. How hilarious to see oneself embroiled in this silly thing! Gonna watch Hangover 2 and hi-five to the embarrassing subconscious plunge into the 30s cliche!